Wow! So much can change in a fortnight. His name is Tim.
Last night we had the dreaded conversation, the one that begins with "so these few weeks have been amazing" and ends with "oh God". To cut a long story short, he has promised God he won't start a relationship in 2007. I'm am at once happy, sad, excited and peaceful. This year is going to be ridiculously hard. The least patient girl in the world is going to have patience built into her DNA and the most wonderful man in the world will have the joy of knowing he's following his father. Wow!
My housemates don't get it. They're really worried about me. They're saying I'm going to get hurt, that it's ridiculous the way Christians do these random denying-yourself-relationships things. But I realised as I spoke to them that even if this is actually wrong, and even if we're being ridiculous and in fact even if as a result of this we lose what we could have had, I'd still rather do this. Because in doing this I'm not putting me first, I'm putting God first, and then Tim, and so in some ways it can't possibly be wrong.
Oh but it will be very hard!
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Linda / Website (28.6.07 16:16) Bex, I've just read this - thanks for being so honest. I admire your friend for being obedient to what he feels the Lord is telling him. I think this was written about the time I broke up with Terry - I really felt that the Lord was not giving me peace about the relationship from day one and I felt a great sense of peace when I ended it. Unfortunately I have to live with the fact that I remain single in my mid 30s and that it was my decision to end the relationship. Sometimes I wonder if I have made a massive mistake letting Terry go. I really don't know. I have several girlfriends who have waited for guys because they felt the Lord had pointed him out and it didn't end up working out. I had an experience where I felt God led me to someone and it didn't work out either. I think God does give us the ultimate choice in the end and we have to live with it. My view on things is to hold this friendship lightly and don't have any expectations. |