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I got up at 6:30. I got to work at 7:30. I didn't have my keys. I went for Red Bull, then walked back home, the long way. My housemates still weren't up, so I sat on the doorstep for half an hour. I got the builder from next door to help me break in. I got my keys. I came back to work. I've had 4 hours of sleep, and I'm not going to get to bed again til 3 if I'm lucky. However, it is a beautiful day and my path to work was strewn with petals this morning, so it's not all bad. The thing that is stressing me is not actual stress and tiredness, though I'm pretty much running on cortisol. No, the thing that is worrying me is that the next day I can conceivably rest is June 17th.
There is blood on one of the letters I got this morning. Should I tell the police?
Stages of grief
Apparently this is no longer en vogue. Well I still think it's true. Faced with loss, every single person I know has gone through denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
On a lighter note, there is a news reader called Damien Grammaticus. Also, I got to ride in a convertible today!
Where's home?
They have changed my blog, and I don't like it. I'm not normally so change averse, in fact I rather like change, but not when things get uglier. Over the past few days several embryonic blogposts have been conceived in my head, but none have come to full-term, and this is partly because I can't bring myself to write in such conditions. They concerned sunhats, sad friends and consumerism. But all have fallen by the wayside, and I am left here trying to sum up the last few days of the Book of Days.
2 - try at least 5 new foods
I failed this one! I ate 3 flavours of Ben and Jerrys that I hadn't eaten before, and licked a postit note. I think I also tried a new kind of biscuit at work, so maybe I didn't fail after all. I definitely failed the spirit of the thing though. I hang my head in shame. Friday was the day I ascertained that my sweet tooth is almost gone. I would rather eat fruit than chocolate 98% of the time. I feel like not a proper woman!
3 - mud bath
I did this one, kinda, and I can prove it. 
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This is what I will look like when I am old (and a geisha). I would also like you to notice that in the photo I am technically performing what is known as a 'wink'. I can do this now, oh yes.
4 - fall in love
Given that we're all postmodern now, I think 'out' is an acceptable synonym for 'in' - so it's fine.
5 - today is do two opposites at once. Hmmm...
Day 1: letters
Yesterday I wrote lots of letters. I had a four hour gap, and no-one to play with, so this was perfect. But this morning I am wondering whether to in fact send any of them (apart from the one I gave to its recipient yesterday - too late!). The premise of them was: 'here's something I wouldn't normally tell you. That now seems like a cowardly premise to me.
I also spent two hours yesterday crafting a response to a plea for help from a far away friend. I'm usually not one to make considered replies. I think on my feet, and that's how I got my degree with about 4 hours of work a week. But yesterday someone asked me for advice, and I was flummoxed. So I was very glad that I had set aside part of the day for writing.
Today is 5 new foods - maybe I could fry the mouse...
Introducing, the Book of Days - June 2006
#1 write letters (me)
#2 try at least 5 new foods (fiona)
#3 take a mud bath (beth)
#4 fall in love (john-the-wit-whittaker)
#5 do two opposites at once (jason)
#6 i saw this and thought of you (jerry)
#7 learn as much as you can in half a day about a sort of
human love of your choice (romnantic, filial, platonic etc) and then determine
how much of what you learn you believe (zoe)
#8 upside down (liz)
#9 flannel (josh)
#10 silence (roxy)
#11 sideways (marika)
#12 spend a day taking notes from the teachers that surround us without going near a school: trees, statues, market sellers... (andrew)
#13 live by the dice (daniel)
#14 spend a day going backwards (ruth w)
#15 take a photograph or draw a picture to remember by (christina)
#16 charity shops and a tour with hats (rach)
#17 bring somebody something which they could not normally
have or have achieved (annie)
#18 supersize me (ruth r)
#19 seasonal (matt l)
#20 travel as far as you can in a day (in your mind,
literally, to a place that is foreign, but close) (emma)
#21 stay longer than you would have done (me)
#22 spend a day in the life of an old person (katherine)
#23 holly (phil)
#24 embrace : gravity (matt i)
#25 race a fairground ride horse (nick)
#26 self raising (sian-lee)
#27 do something you have dismissed as being "impossible" (kate ob)
#28 ‘I love her because she moves in her own way’ --the
kooks (chris)
#29 sing for your supper (jacko)
#30 a day of atonement (matt b)
These are the days of June.